mizuwizu

The upset blog

2011-08-02T19:33:00.001-07:00

Yeah yeah ... People blog when their upset ... Unfortunatly I'm also ... People ...

So today I'm feeling lonely ... Like seriously lonely ... As if people don't care if I'm around or not. Sometimes I just don't wanna depend on them for happiness ... It should come from within me ... Hmmm maybe that's where anti depresents come into play.

The happy pills ... Atleast that's what I call it. Maybe I should consider taking them .

Realization

2011-05-02T05:28:00.001-07:00

I realised today ... That my relationship was on the rocks ... And that maybe ... We were just not suitable for each other ... We are total opposites ... He's practical .... And I'm the dreamy sort. I believe in encouragement and support ... And he believes in solving the problem.What I have to give ... Is not what he wants or needs. What he has to offer me, is bot what I need or want ...

I honestly feel like he's suffering being with me... I guess it's time I take the first step...I'm going to destroy a relationship... Atleast to save a friendship

Frustration

2011-04-24T06:33:00.001-07:00

I feel terrible for expecting people to understand how I feel all the time ... But sometimes it's good to feel like ur not alone in this world ....

I guess I've been expecting to much from everyone .... It's frustrating to me how people can point accusations at u ... Like for example .... The words childish ad pampered ... Who are you to be the judge of that? .. I wonder ...

Friendships

2011-04-13T09:47:00.001-07:00

All my life I've know different people from different walks of life ... Many have come and gone like the wind. But some have stuck with me... Those very select few people are my friends...

Ditched

2011-04-04T10:59:00.001-07:00

My bestie ditched me for her boyfriend today. And I thought that telling her that I've left my job and that my health is crashing and rolling down hill would have kept her around. I even told her that I was going for therapy... But no... I still got ditched. I guess the only way I can get ur attention away from that hairy social retard is to jump of a freaking cliff ... There I said it.... I'm done with all this best friend bullshit... From now on... Ur on ur own... Cause even if I was hit by a bus, u wouldn't be by my side cause social retard was hungry for u to cook him dinner... Something a grown man like him would never be able to do... How unfortunate.

2011-04-04T02:23:00.001-07:00

What's the use when I stay on my room all day and cry...

Hate

2011-03-29T06:13:00.001-07:00

Hate is such a strong word ... I plan on using it now ... I hate all of u!

A fresh start

2011-03-28T08:50:00.001-07:00

Yay! I've managed to DL and ap that allows me to blog from my phone! This make my life a hell of alot easier. I guess I only blog when I'm stressed or upset. I guess this isn't because I want to share my pain and to get any form of attention from the Internet. But because I need an outlet the vent my anger and thoughts on how I percieve the world and people around me.

So yes before u choose to read further, this is going to be somewhat of an emotional and mybe a slightly offensive post... Depending on how u enjoy ur cup of tea.

People need to feed off other people to survive in this world ... And sometimes I feel like it just doesn't happen in a good way. People are selfish creatures ... Which brings me to my rant of the day. I've been getting it left right and centre . Be it from my significant other half or from friends and family ... I wish I could split my self into a million pieces sometimes... One for each group . Then I wouldn't have to be so sore about not being able to make time for others. Heck I need time for myself! So in other words, I'm not going to care what anyone else thinks anymore ... If I feel like it, I will make time to meet u so we can sit around and do nothing with our lives. I mean seriously. Do u honestly need me around to take care of u people? Don't u know how to take care of yourselves? And so what if u are feeling like a lump of turd? Have u people ever considered that I could be feeling just as shitty?

I enjoy being left alone sometimes... It gives me alot of room to do my own reflections and have me time .. I don't need to waste my time and money to sit with u and let u decide what to do with my life... So please ... leave me alone.

Thanks

2011-03-17T02:30:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wish i lived on the mountain top with the crisp air.

2010-12-08T23:57:00.000-08:00

why is it that every time i wake up from my slumber, i wake up feeling dead. Not physically ... but more or less emotionally.
i dunno why i feel this way or why i feel meaningless and useless all the time. In my head, i know that i am wasting precious time but my heart just stops me from doing anything at all ... feels like crap to be in a position like this.

2010-08-23T20:22:00.000-07:00

LOL !!!! wah lao ... its been ages since i have used blogger.

feels so much better to start up this blog account once again ...

maybe i will post more stuff up soonish.

Right now i am in the office.... with nothing else better to do with my life... so yeah ...

stay tuned!

( for the next few years before i actually post something up i assume ;p)